Category: Musings

Absorption Catalyst

They know what to do to speed up the reaction. Neon pulsations to speed satisfaction. Close your eyes. Meet the new girl as she looks upon the other in its taut social bondage, suspended with head curled backward toward toes and unworthy of pronouns. Chests expand and contract in autopilot, apart and hungry for a sliver of sensation while they stand in a ragged circle six feet away, watching. Is it conscious? Does that matter for their purposes? Biting the foil wrapped ‘round tingles more than iron flowing in skins. Hot and synthetic, creation of tremors ‘til the prophet rises to impart some moral. It is missed upon me as I startle when they turn their backs in unison. Twelve eyes, two more covered, and mine on coals now, waiting in the dark, frozen in the sight, shining and concerned that they see their reflection. She realizes that she is outside this circle and I see her expression change as one more viewer becomes a participant. One more step forward and it becomes consent. The fascination is too much to protest. 

How are you sure of what is real on this stage? How sure are you that this is not the stage? Immersive experiences are trending. Investment in manipulation of (many) others’ uncertainty shall always pay off in the end for those that understand how to capture attention.  

Stare Dragon. From back in High School on the back of a Health Class “Ditto” when I should have probably been paying attention. The score said “8/8” so maybe it didn’t really matter…

Gape of the Ocean

I find myself at a precipice and wonder if I should go ahead and jump or find an alternate way to climb down. People did this before and survived, I think as I leaned to look. There are great sensations like the electricity of arising panic when the ocean retreats for a tsunami, with its inhale half Awe and half “Awe shit.”

“Safety Fiiirrrst!,” My intoxicated neighbor would say as he was climbing the tree to trim them. Yes, safety, would be the foremost concern of the anxious mind. The push for the new is always there. The anxious mind sees it as a threat. When you serenade darkness, then it finally talks back, only you are to blame. There is no calm understanding of it at that point. The will to flee kicks in and the dread comes in relentless waves that ooze like taffy, onto each layer, then, sinking into themselves to create a new picture of a plastic endeavor. Fear will eat you this way. Some forms of anxiety are valid. 

So, I put it out there, and waited. Thought of all the things I could do with my time if I wasn’t sitting around thinking. Endless Starts and Invisible Finishes are my specialty, yet again. I was once accused of letting life go by me. Then, I snapped my claws upon the cape of the rabbit hole before me. Once determined, I will not let go.

Sketch and Prose from the ’00’s at some point.
Fairly certain that someone spilled their vodka on my sketchbook at the time.