Apathy can only project you so far until you Peter out in the swamps of irritation and begin to pitch and bail the dinghy while knowing you are going down. (Sorry Bandi, you know I Love You, Baby. *wink *wink. You too, Judit–double wink* for those who know us). This facade is a nonsense part of life and marriage, thank you for understanding in advance. You da, You da bess.

The situation set before us is actually a horrendous state if you are only feet from the shore and you just don’t want to ruin your outfit, however, the macro to SURVIVE kicks in and you are on your way. [This is planned.] But, gosh, it sure feels organic. I can be fooled by sandworms and gags, but the feeling is left idling on the stove in a simmer. It is impossible to ignore or compromise your Safety–whatever that means for you and me. 

I am generally not liking the feeling of bouncing or belittling, having experienced it far too many times myself and would rather we both just have fun. But, there is a dense implication here. And one that should not be ignored. Each person should air their feelings, don’t linger, but say what you mean for a change. It is super uncomfortable and feels like the apple peeler against the arms, but, you will settle in and be better in the long run. Let Auntie Kristie tell you about it. Let Auntie Matthew tell you about it, too. Cross pollination is what built the world of bees and people. Let it Bee. Haha…sorry, just couldn’t help myself. 

I see you, and I just want to Pause you in your armor, give you a smidgeon of the overwhelming incompetence that I am fielding right now. Bring you back down. Then, you would understand, that we can both bail the boat because the issue is not right or wrong, but a different question altogether. Speaking of the Altogether, I leave you with the amusement of Orbital: Meltdown, with whom I spent many days listening in the Woods and running for my life. 

Thanks and credits to Serotoonladder for posting the Orbital Vids.  

In all seriousness, Have a plan B. If that plan does not include people, then, make it so! Use your God-given awkwardness to exclaim, “I’m here, I’m Queer!” Oh, wait, that just sounded like a great rhyme. Love ya qweenz, but I have to get back on topic. Y’all. You already know. There is nothing you can do for a sinking ship. Do not waste your energy. Funnel it into something that you love and go ‘head and LIVE.